My husband is in his feelings. He's going through a heartbreak. When that happens, he's sober, reflective, very calm and respectful. He barely touches what I cook. He'll be in bed all night but won't sleep. I see it and know something is wrong but he won't tell me what is wrong no matter how long I probe.
He's in his feelings now because he's going through relationship problems with his side chick. I read the messages on his laptop. His WhatsApp is connected there so it was easier. The lady involved is only twenty-two years old. She kept talking about her age and asking my husband to allow her to enjoy her life.
There's someone new in the girl's life. My husband is aware of it and pleading with the girl not to do that to him. The girl said, "You're married but I didn't care. What's wrong if I also get a boyfriend? After all, you won't marry me?" My husband wants to be the only man in the girl's life. The girl wants more and is threatening a breakup hence my husband's heartbreak.
I should have been heartbroken too but instead of pain, I feel pity for him. A 40-year-old married man allowing a kid to treat him this way. I didn't close the chat on his laptop. I left it on for him to see that I've read it. I haven't asked him any question and I might never do. He's seen it too that I've read it. Now I don't know what he's going through, heartbreak or fear, I don't know.
He looks at me suspiciously. There are answers he wants to give. I don't want to know. I have two kids, that's where my care is. He can do whatever he wants but when the time comes, he can't stop me and can't stop what I'll take him through. If a twenty-two-year-old can do this to him, then he should brace himself for a tsunami. It comes without a warning.
This is me ranting, trying to put up a strong front as if it doesn't hurt. It hurts but I won't allow a twenty-two-year-old to cause me a heartbreak. It's embarrassing.
Story Credit: Silent Beads